Welcome to AFN Sadist, you've come to the right place. Back in April I found my way here for exactly the same reason, I was medically separated in 2012 and got all strung out on pharma just to keep my head above water(or as close as I could approximate) when a friend suggested I might use some canna for the pain, long story short I decided to grow for the same reasons and it's been a giant ray of light in an otherwise fairly dark story. Anyway, I say all that to say that I hope you find the same pain relief, and of equal importance that you find peace. If you ever need anything don't hesitate to ask!! 
