This was my view.
I felt the heat of the 2nd blast lick my face, and a moment after the pressure wave.
Certified lifeguard, CPR, regular 5 and 10 mile swims. I saw myself as someone who should help others.
When the first plane hit I knew what to do. I had practiced all my life to shoot this one arrow, and so while most went the other way, I headed in.
I thought I could help.
I saw the jumpers, sometimes 2 together holding hands. You could see them trying to balance as they fell, as if it would all be okay if somehow they landed on their feet.
I wasn't.
And I ran away.
For over a year I felt like a coward, but eventually I realized that I couldn't have helped anyone.
I have 2 more rolls I shot up close. I needed to take them, but there is no need to develop them.
Nobody needs to see what I saw.
I'll be under the weighted blanket today.
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