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[anonamoose]

i ran out of meds about 2 weeks ago and have had to buy off a street dealer, £20 for 1.4 gram of contaminated weed which was mostly leaves. spoke to my girlfriends lodger yesterday, he asked me what i was up to that night, i said 'hopefully getting some weed' and he mentioned someone he works with has recently harvested a lot of weed and is looking to get rid of some of it as he has too much. hes asking him today how much for an ounce, im praying it goes ahead i have a horrible feeling he wont be able to sort anything and ill still have to get from the street dealer, as my next harvest isnt untill atleast 30 days from now. an ounce would easily get me through untill my next harvest but i cant help but feel that theres like a 10% chance of it actually happening, it just seems too good to be true as life is really not good without my meds (i have schizophrenia & social anxiety disorder on top of other fun shit).

every minute seems like hours he's at work all day today so i wont find out till tonight at the earliest, he has no idea how much cannabis helps my symptoms, he doesnt smoke himself and isnt very informed on the benefits of cannabis and probably thinks im just a stoner lookin to get high and mong out or whatever. i think im feelin so negative about it actually happening because if it did the next month of my life will be so much more bearable and ive had a not so good life and things always seem to fuck up when i need it the most, i dunno...

im sorry for posting this but i just wanted to empty y head maybe itll stop it going round in circles or some shit, i have no friends so i cant ask them lol. thanks for reading

 

[wwwillie]

Peace my friend... If it were mine to give it would be yours.
Sending out my best-est vibes and good will thoughts out to you and this fellow. Hopefully you will be in possession of your meds shortly!

 

[AndyBotwin]

Sorry to hear of the troubles, mate. If you were around the corner I'd hook you up... :Sharing One:

 

[komach]

sometimes life surprises you
i ran out of meds about 2 weeks ago and have had to buy off a street dealer, £20 for 1.4 gram of contaminated weed which was mostly leaves. spoke to my girlfriends lodger yesterday, he asked me what i was up to that night, i said 'hopefully getting some weed' and he mentioned someone he works with has recently harvested a lot of weed and is looking to get rid of some of it as he has too much. hes asking him today how much for an ounce, im praying it goes ahead i have a horrible feeling he wont be able to sort anything and ill still have to get from the street dealer, as my next harvest isnt untill atleast 30 days from now. an ounce would easily get me through untill my next harvest but i cant help but feel that theres like a 10% chance of it actually happening, it just seems too good to be true as life is really not good without my meds (i have schizophrenia & social anxiety disorder on top of other fun shit). every minute seems like hours he's at work all day today so i wont find out till tonight at the earliest, he has no idea how much cannabis helps my symptoms, he doesnt smoke himself and isnt very informed on the benefits of cannabis and probably thinks im just a stoner lookin to get high and mong out or whatever. i think im feelin so negative about it actually happening because if it did the next month of my life will be so much more bearable and ive had a not so good life and things always seem to fuck up when i need it the most, i dunno... im sorry for posting this but i just wanted to empty y head maybe itll stop it going round in circles or some shit, i have no friends so i cant ask them lol. thanks for reading

I'm also out of meds and it is crap whatever you get from street dealers......And the price is to big for what you get. Hope you will get what you need :Sharing One:

 

[Groff]

Hang in there bro... I'm sure you'll be well sorted! fingers crossed and positive vibes!

 

[anonamoose]

thanks for the replys, i appreciate it. im feelin better now, my mood is up & down like a yo-yo without any mj. i have taken myself off of all the prescription meds and replaced them with cannabis, so im on absolutely nothing atm to help with things. i still get prescriptions for my meds, i throw them out though as im in a very cannabis unfriendly town/country so theres no point even asking them what they think about cannabis, especially seeing as my doctors record has a long history of substance abuse and my mental health issues which thanks to propoganda everyone thinks its harmful to those with mental health problems when in actual fact it is the one thing that works.

what pisses me off the most is the fact that i have to even bother with trying to get some weed just because the pharma companys & government want every penny they get not caring that im literally suicidal without cannabis, aslong as they get there money. i should be able to come here, ask around if anyones got any spare, and then i buy it through your ebay account or something along those lines, it should be so easy to get, but its not and mine and others lives are unbearable because of it. sorry for all the ranting, i really appreciate this forum and how friendly everyone is, i wish the world outside my house was like that then maybe id actually leave the fuckin house once in a while.

 

[wwwillie]

thanks for the replys, i appreciate it. im feelin better now, my mood is up & down like a yo-yo without any mj. i have taken myself off of all the prescription meds and replaced them with cannabis, so im on absolutely nothing atm to help with things. i still get prescriptions for my meds, i throw them out though as im in a very cannabis unfriendly town/country so theres no point even asking them what they think about cannabis, especially seeing as my doctors record has a long history of substance abuse and my mental health issues which thanks to propoganda everyone thinks its harmful to those with mental health problems when in actual fact it is the one thing that works.

what pisses me off the most is the fact that i have to even bother with trying to get some weed just because the pharma companys & government want every penny they get not caring that im literally suicidal without cannabis, aslong as they get there money. i should be able to come here, ask around if anyones got any spare, and then i buy it through your ebay account or something along those lines, it should be so easy to get, but its not and mine and others lives are unbearable because of it. sorry for all the ranting, i really appreciate this forum and how friendly everyone is, i wish the world outside my house was like that then maybe id actually leave the fuckin house once in a while.

I hear you brother!
Peace,
Willie

 

[yodabuds]

Anamoose I feel for you... Though I must play the big brother here.... Why the heck did you stop your meds for your schizophrenia? I'm not sure if any of those meds were antipsychotics.... If so going off them is a VERY BAD IDEA.... I agree 100% with replacing the anti anxiety meds with canna... Though, for a true schizophrenic no meds is a very bad Idea.... All to often I see people at my job who have for one reason or another got off their meds and did not end up with good results...
As much as I depend on canna for treating my symptoms of my multiple sclerosis , which a big one is chronic severe depression, episodes of mania (not true manic episodes but days of fleeting ideas, mind racing, not sleeping) and also suffer anxiety and insomnia... The canna most certainly helps with these ailments and at many times have replaced my sleeping meds and my anti anxiety meds though I know all to well not to stop taking my anti-depressants... As much as afn and canna help me, I know ultimately I have a disease that is playing havoc in my head and I know without the anti-depressants I could potentially not be here... So I take them faithfully... I will be sending a big :karma Cloud: of love and peace for your mind till things work themselves out.l. Trust in the universe.... It's always telling us what we need to hear, we just need to learn to quiet are jumbled up heads long enough and listen.... Maybe this is a way of telling you take a smoke break, get your head in order as much as possible, try to meditate...
I know many times life has thrown me a curve ball and I've ran out of smoke... It usually happens when it's a time in my life soberity is what was needed.... I pray you have some meds on hand to get you through at least either pharma or canna....
Sending you one big virtual bag of Dragons... :Riding the Dragon:

 

[anonamoose]

i feel so much better on just canna, my girlfriend and her parents have also said i seem so much better, i feel much better, ive been off them for about 11 months almost and have had no manic episodes at all, the complete opposite of when i was on the pharmas, not to mention the DOZENS of horrible side effects from pharmas. ive even been making plans to get back in employment and leave the house more often, not just thinking about it, but actual plans. i never thought id get to that point before i made the switch. im not arguing with you, i will deffinately think about what you said, i already am, espescially the sober period part. thank you for saying that its really made me think.

 

[anonamoose]

my girlfriend just text me saying the lodger rang her and wanted to speak to me, she gave me his number, i brushed the dust off my phone and text him and am now waiting for a reply, i really hope its good news!

and to add top my previous post, i believe everything happens for a reason so if i cant get the canna then im thinkin its a message... thank you again