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You're awesome, but just somewhat right. She is trying to lash out and hurt for many reasons, but she also doesn't like me and never did. She says the very first time she saw me, right after I was born, that I looked at her with distrust and disgust...can anyone say "projection!"?

Obviously, my birth was a special moment to all...and it was no accident, they spent two years trying to have a baby.

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That's not normal Witchy m'luv. I don't understand how anyone could think their own child isn't good enough.
 
That's not normal Witchy m'luv. I don't understand how anyone could think their own child isn't good enough.
You'd think you'd unconditionally love something made by you, with your genes, right? Well, my dear, you'd be wrong in my case. lol

And no, neither of my parents would ever be considered normal, at all. The talk in the family (her family that I was mostly kept away from because she didn't get along with them most the time) always was "she's a weird kid, but what would you expect with the parents she has..."

My dad was an absent playboy, too busy burning my grandmother's money. Mom was too busy dating 10 guys at once, getting on fights with people during her fury attacks, and going to voodoo sessions so she could destroy all her enemies... *rolls eyes*

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Can you believe I'm not stoned? Still digesting the news mom broke to me yesterday, that she doesn't care for me as a person and would never want anything to do with me if I weren't her child. The reason? She just wanted me to be perfect and I've failed her! Her and my dad...

Now, doesn't that explain a LOT? [emoji121] [emoji53]

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Wow!

I hope you pointed out the apple never falls far from the tree.

This is the woman you currently devote your life to caring for, yeah?

Chin up witch, we love you. You can choose your friends,you can't choose your family.

Itisi
it is isn't it?
 
As an only child and only grandchild, from parents who spent years trying to have a child, only to be disappointed with the result, I was pretty much on my own...

Some people shouldn't have kids.

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Lucky for us they did witch.

Itisi
it is isn't it?
 
You'd think you'd unconditionally love something made by you, with your genes, right? Well, my dear, you'd be wrong in my case. lol

And no, neither of my parents would ever be considered normal, at all. The talk in the family (her family that I was mostly kept away from because she didn't get along with them most the time) always was "she's a weird kid, but what would you expect with the parents she has..."

My dad was an absent playboy, too busy burning my grandmother's money. Mom was too busy dating 10 guys at once, getting on fights with people during her fury attacks, and going to voodoo sessions so she could destroy all her enemies... *rolls eyes*

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Well, witch. You've shown amazing strength of character to come through that with any degree of normality, well as normal as any other crazy cat stoner!

People are formed through nature and nurture, if parents aren't happy with the results then it's their failing no matter how you look at it.

I don't agree with spiking people up, but stick some rosin in her coffee every morning. Make the ungrateful so and so more bearable.



Itisi
it is isn't it?
 
So yesterday my next door neighbour knocked, she looked close to tears and was visibly shaking. 'erm, how's the pups? ' Itisher pointed at the black and blue furry ball bouncing off the skirting board. 'is that both? ' yeah, why?

She took us to her garden and lifted a bag to reveal a half eaten animal that she had chased a fox off of. We couldn't work out if it was a kitten or a pup, most likely a kitten. We've got a few feral cats locally.
My poor neighbour tho! Thinking she'd found one of ours!
 
Wow!

I hope you pointed out the apple never falls far from the tree.

This is the woman you currently devote your life to caring for, yeah?

Chin up witch, we love you. You can choose your friends,you can't choose your family.

Itisi
it is isn't it?
Thanks, itisyou! And you're so right, my friends are the family I chose and who chose me (sorta, you kinda became my mentor without really choosing...). [emoji121] [emoji6]

Now, seriously, you're right. This is the person I brought to have a better life in a safer country and the reason why I had to quit my job after having a nervous breakdown dealing with a full-time job, a house purchase/renovation and her (a second full-time job). And the stress of her complaining all along, nothing you do is ever good enough for her.

Of course, as I tried to sit downstairs and harvest my plant, we ended up getting into an argument because she was irritated by my distant behavior, being hurt by what she said last night. So, she proceeded to say that love is earned and I just never earned hers. That she was actually starting to like me when she first got here and was being treated with so much love and attention, but that all of a sudden, I changed. I pointed out that change took place at was just about the time when she started taunting me as I did things for her, saying I love serving and that I'm such a little slave, laughing an calling me slave, and that it turned me off.

She said only someone like me, full of stupid complexes would be offended over something like that. If someone said that to her, she'd just laugh it off...I have no sense of humor, she said.

I've been thinking long and hard, at this point I don't know if I can have her here indefinitely. I'm remembering how the stress of growing up with these people affected me, I was a very sick child. She herself always says that whenever people started arguing near me when I was an infant, I'd have an asthma attack. I'm also noticing that in the last year, since she got here, I've been sick with this and that pretty often.

Guys, I'm very sorry. I totally hijacked the thread with my personal crap.

Thanks so much for being the awesome people you are and for being there, every hug and thought was deeply appreciated. And I took quite a bit of Xanax, so there may be some gibberish, too. Oh, well... LOL

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Well, witch. You've shown amazing strength of character to come through that with any degree of normality, well as normal as any other crazy cat stoner!

People are formed through nature and nurture, if parents aren't happy with the results then it's their failing no matter how you look at it.

I don't agree with spiking people up, but stick some rosin in her coffee every morning. Make the ungrateful so and so more bearable.



Itisi
it is isn't it?
Hmmm...she does eat a lot, and I can cook with canna butter...

You're awesome! She's gonna be ecstatic, I'm gonna start cooking for her again! [emoji121] [emoji2]

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Thanks, itisyou! And you're so right, my friends are the family I chose and who chose me (sorta, you kinda became my mentor without really choosing...). [emoji121] [emoji6]

Now, seriously, you're right. This is the person I brought to have a better life in a safer country and the reason why I had to quit my job after having a nervous breakdown dealing with a full-time job, a house purchase/renovation and her (a second full-time job). And the stress of her complaining all along, nothing you do is ever good enough for her.

Of course, as I tried to sit downstairs and harvest my plant, we ended up getting into an argument because she was irritated by my distant behavior, being hurt by what she said last night. So, she proceeded to say that love is earned and I just never earned hers. That she was actually starting to like me when she first got here and was being treated with so much love and attention, but that all of a sudden, I changed. I pointed out that change took place at was just about the time when she started taunting me as I did things for her, saying I love serving and that I'm such a little slave, laughing an calling me slave, and that it turned me off.

She said only someone like me, full of stupid complexes would be offended over something like that. If someone said that to her, she'd just laugh it off...I have no sense of humor, she said.

I've been thinking long and hard, at this point I don't know if I can have her here indefinitely. I'm remembering how the stress of growing up with these people affected me, I was a very sick child. She herself always says that whenever people started arguing near me when I was an infant, I'd have an asthma attack. I'm also noticing that in the last year, since she got here, I've been sick with this and that pretty often.

Guys, I'm very sorry. I totally hijacked the thread with my personal crap.

Thanks so much for being the awesome people you are and for being there, every hug and thought was deeply appreciated. And I took quite a bit of Xanax, so there may be some gibberish, too. Oh, well... LOL

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Na witchy you earn respect not love if nothings ever good enough for the women why try I think you know what you need to do by the sounds of it you owe your parents nothing I put my life on hold for 12 years being my dad's carer it's hard work and thats when they love you unconditionaly God knows how hard it is for you get on with your life witchy you deserve it

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