Ghost
Watcher Of The Trichomes
Joining here on Christmas Day year 2012. I have watched and learned from more members here than I even have time to name. Some I have in-boxed, asked on threads or just read their journals.
I was never turned down or frowned at for my questions.
No matter how dumb, stupid, lame or self explanatory they may have been. There was a sense of unity. People went out their way to help you. There was this family like feel to this place. :hug:.
Fast forward to the present it's like I can hear a song from Jay-z. Yeah that's it! The one from 2001 Heart of a City. He asks "Where is the love?" With that being said I have watched shit start to rolling downward about 3 months before the attacks. Lets be honest here.
Go back in time to the day of the attack on the site. I was phucking going nuts when I couldnt log on to the site. And my ass was at work at my computer in my classroom not knowing that my home away from home was under attack. I remember trying constantly over and over several times a hour for a whole work day. I was going bananas trying to get in, needing to be in.
Lets go back to a few months before the attacks. There were some prime members and staff that were very vocal and a very big part of this place. All of a sudden fall into the back light. Nobody was talking about it but I was noticing.
I have seen members totally erased from the site as if they never existed. Every entry they have ever made gone. Knowledge forever lost, yet so much to still be learned from their journals. Some will say I am stirring the pot, kicking up dust, starting shit. I assure you 100% that is the farthest thing from the truth.
What I am doing is saying as a 40 year old man is that we need to stop with the bullshit as a family. Hell I have answered questions in threads to new members this year and than read comments where a mod on another thread was throwing shots at me. Not saying my name, deliberately but making reference to my answers and a mockery out of me at the same time. This is no bullshit all fact. I haves since than answered questions only to delete them because I am still feeling some kind of way.
Yes I have been growing for under 2 years but I have 5 harvests with over 20 autoflowers. And have my first photo harvests approaching of 3 photo plants. I have made my own auto crosses. I even grew one of the crosses out she is on cure for a few months now. She nice smoke. I have 3 other crosses I have made that I have yet to even attempt to grow.
I am by no means a pro but at the same time I am no rookie. I have watched countless dvds read books and posts online. Learning as much as I can I honestly have every cannabis dvd and pdfs I could download from the internet,on a external hard drive . And no shit, that is part of my addictive personality. Also I have a lot of experimenting going on all the time. I see this is starting to be a ME thing blame that on the weed I have smoked before starting this thread.
Okay lets go back in time again. Back to the time of the attack. A time yet again I was frantically attempting to gain access to the site, back home. Hell yes I am in, there are 3 admins on the site discussing the attacks. Prior to this I was clueless as to what was going on.
I remember feeling pissed at the person responsible for shutting down the site. And his demands. And during the dark times trying to gain access to the site. I even joined two other places that I fail to mention by name. But I voiced my concern for the site there and looked for members as I did not change my name there. I felt like Dorthy from The Wizard of Oz clicking her heals, ""There's No Place Like Home".
Fast forward to the present time. The site has not fallen again, but some soldiers have. And we lost some good people along the way. We also lost some well deserving a-holes as well. The vibe has changed here. And I also am becoming one of the birds thinking about flying the nest. But I have a hard time of letting go. Holding on to way it was than so much has changed in a year and a half here.
There is really no point other than I needed to get some shit off my chest. And I needed to remind myself why I joined this place. And why I fell in love with mary jane all over again (on another level by learning to grow). I need to remember why I spent countless hours reading journals and watching the chat box. Funny thing is someone will want to turn this into something negative. Today I am here tomorrow I may just be a memory. So I never get involved in disputes or voice my opinion. And I could go on and on I have so much I want to say but this has come to an end but...
I needed to say this before I am one day banned and or erased forever.
I was never turned down or frowned at for my questions.
No matter how dumb, stupid, lame or self explanatory they may have been. There was a sense of unity. People went out their way to help you. There was this family like feel to this place. :hug:.
Fast forward to the present it's like I can hear a song from Jay-z. Yeah that's it! The one from 2001 Heart of a City. He asks "Where is the love?" With that being said I have watched shit start to rolling downward about 3 months before the attacks. Lets be honest here.
Go back in time to the day of the attack on the site. I was phucking going nuts when I couldnt log on to the site. And my ass was at work at my computer in my classroom not knowing that my home away from home was under attack. I remember trying constantly over and over several times a hour for a whole work day. I was going bananas trying to get in, needing to be in.
Lets go back to a few months before the attacks. There were some prime members and staff that were very vocal and a very big part of this place. All of a sudden fall into the back light. Nobody was talking about it but I was noticing.
I have seen members totally erased from the site as if they never existed. Every entry they have ever made gone. Knowledge forever lost, yet so much to still be learned from their journals. Some will say I am stirring the pot, kicking up dust, starting shit. I assure you 100% that is the farthest thing from the truth.
What I am doing is saying as a 40 year old man is that we need to stop with the bullshit as a family. Hell I have answered questions in threads to new members this year and than read comments where a mod on another thread was throwing shots at me. Not saying my name, deliberately but making reference to my answers and a mockery out of me at the same time. This is no bullshit all fact. I haves since than answered questions only to delete them because I am still feeling some kind of way.
Yes I have been growing for under 2 years but I have 5 harvests with over 20 autoflowers. And have my first photo harvests approaching of 3 photo plants. I have made my own auto crosses. I even grew one of the crosses out she is on cure for a few months now. She nice smoke. I have 3 other crosses I have made that I have yet to even attempt to grow.
I am by no means a pro but at the same time I am no rookie. I have watched countless dvds read books and posts online. Learning as much as I can I honestly have every cannabis dvd and pdfs I could download from the internet,on a external hard drive . And no shit, that is part of my addictive personality. Also I have a lot of experimenting going on all the time. I see this is starting to be a ME thing blame that on the weed I have smoked before starting this thread.
Okay lets go back in time again. Back to the time of the attack. A time yet again I was frantically attempting to gain access to the site, back home. Hell yes I am in, there are 3 admins on the site discussing the attacks. Prior to this I was clueless as to what was going on.
I remember feeling pissed at the person responsible for shutting down the site. And his demands. And during the dark times trying to gain access to the site. I even joined two other places that I fail to mention by name. But I voiced my concern for the site there and looked for members as I did not change my name there. I felt like Dorthy from The Wizard of Oz clicking her heals, ""There's No Place Like Home".
Fast forward to the present time. The site has not fallen again, but some soldiers have. And we lost some good people along the way. We also lost some well deserving a-holes as well. The vibe has changed here. And I also am becoming one of the birds thinking about flying the nest. But I have a hard time of letting go. Holding on to way it was than so much has changed in a year and a half here.
There is really no point other than I needed to get some shit off my chest. And I needed to remind myself why I joined this place. And why I fell in love with mary jane all over again (on another level by learning to grow). I need to remember why I spent countless hours reading journals and watching the chat box. Funny thing is someone will want to turn this into something negative. Today I am here tomorrow I may just be a memory. So I never get involved in disputes or voice my opinion. And I could go on and on I have so much I want to say but this has come to an end but...
I needed to say this before I am one day banned and or erased forever.
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