have a hug... I've got great sympathy.
BTW...since I think we share genetic med traits....you haven't been wheat/grain heavy the last few days have you.....?....
That guaranteed the wide awake exhaustion nights for me. View attachment 1745777
No, not really. I got checked for food sensitivity when all this started, and didn’t have any.I’ve done every exclusionary diet there is, to no avail.
It’s all PTSD related, unfortunately. June 7 marks the anniversary of the last good sleep I got….in 07 I was jolted awake from a deep sleep by a rocket attack on the base I was on…. I jumped outta bed, opened the door to the pod I was in, and from my perspective, it looked like these rockets were coming directly at me….(they were going over my head, and landing a few hundred meters away)…. In that moment I was positive I was about to die…. And the combination of sleep grogginess, and intense adrenaline was like a weird drug like state… audible exclusion, the world seemed very hazy, hard to think….. in that moment it’s like a switch flipped in my brain…. And I never ever slept soundly since… for about ten years afterwards, I would awake into a panic attack every single time I fell asleep…. So every day started with trying to quell anxiety….
To be honest, this is rather torturous, but it’s progress, I suppose…
Plus, the injuries were happening at a fast rate…. I broke a vertebrae in my neck then, tore my shoulder apart, and tore a bunch of ligaments in my knee… all separate incidents, within about three years…. My body was in crisis and breaking down fast….
...back from the brink...
