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I just read this thread from start to here. I can't wait to see how it all unfolds. Will he? Won't he?
I do hope he come through for ya moosey. And thanks for eloquently sharing with us your story. (you too Yoda)
What happend next ...............
I do hope he come through for ya moosey. And thanks for eloquently sharing with us your story. (you too Yoda)
What happend next ...............
@moose I'm getting good vibes for you brother ! Maybe the message was when next harvest comes through put an oz aside and have someone you trust and doesn't smoke hold onto it for you.... It's always good to have a little insurance... If you don't mind sharing do you have voices with your schizophrenia? As that is what I am talking about with the meds... A true schizophrenic the voice are dulled and dealable with meds without it can get really bad... I remember a program once that tried to show how a schizophrenic observes their world and the constant chatter and yelling over "reality" it was really an eye opener for me... I've met many schizophrenics, learned about it etc but wasn't till watching that video that I really realized what a scary world it must be for someone suffer on this disease....
So am sending you a :karma Cloud: that an oz is waiting for you
:sharing One:
So am sending you a :karma Cloud: that an oz is waiting for you
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spoke to the lodger yesterday after he rang, the guy he was going to get it from got robbed 2 days ago he said. my girlfriend drove me out of town and managed to get about a .08 gram for £10 GBP off a friend of hers though so i did manage to get some thanks to her. its all been smoked now but i did a lot of thinking whilst high, like how i am so grateful for the life i have now. i was in a lot worse of a position in the past, i have so much now in terms of support via a very supportive girlfriend and her mum, ive cleared my debt, in the best shape of my life and getting better everyday, no longer on hard drugs & alcohol, i have CBT therapy and they help me a tonne. im able to grow my own canna now (only been growing a yearish) and growing in itself is such a distraction from everything and the most satisfying and addictive hobby ive ever had & then at the end of it you get some great quality & clean bud. theres lots more improvements in my life that i cant remember off the top of my head. i find it so strange that when something changes in life for the better, its amazing at the start but then as time goes on you get used to it and start to take it for granted, its not that im unapreciative its just a weird process that i think everyone has. for whatever reason all these good things in my life just didnt enter my mind during the recent low period. there now at the front of my mind and it makes me want to cry how lucky i am.
i feel so embarrassed about the rest of this thread, i usually just keep everything inside, even from my girlfriend i just tell her "my heads bein shit" and she doesnt ask questions or anything, she understands and leaves me to it and in the meantime doing all she can to make my life easier. im so lucky to have her, especially considering the colossal shut in i am. she isnt some dumb slut that in the past ive been involved with who just wanna go out every night and get shitfaced & inevitably cheat and all that fun shit, shes amazing shes at university doing a psychology degree, only drinks socially once in a while when she meets up with her friends and for the first time im with someone who i want to be with for the rest of my life. anyway my point was, i never talk about things like this, even online and i feel embarrassed and ashamed that you guys know some personal things about me, things that have always made me feel an outsider in the real world and want to keep to myself and i hate more than anything to burden people with my woe is me shit when im feelin sorry for myself. ill avoid this in future, but thank you everyone for the replys in this thread, they really helped me out and get my mind thinking in the right direction. life sucks and its hard i can either give up or fight it and atleast attempt to win, if i lose then ill be in the same place i was so i have nothing to lose. i hope this positive thinking lasts though, it usually does for a few days and then back to normal but thank you everyone here, i really do appreciate it, every single one of you ITT have made a positive impact on my life and helped me out of a shitty mindset, thank you so much
thank you everyone here
this video really helped aswell maybe itll help one of you http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HKI_oYMUNK4
i feel so embarrassed about the rest of this thread, i usually just keep everything inside, even from my girlfriend i just tell her "my heads bein shit" and she doesnt ask questions or anything, she understands and leaves me to it and in the meantime doing all she can to make my life easier. im so lucky to have her, especially considering the colossal shut in i am. she isnt some dumb slut that in the past ive been involved with who just wanna go out every night and get shitfaced & inevitably cheat and all that fun shit, shes amazing shes at university doing a psychology degree, only drinks socially once in a while when she meets up with her friends and for the first time im with someone who i want to be with for the rest of my life. anyway my point was, i never talk about things like this, even online and i feel embarrassed and ashamed that you guys know some personal things about me, things that have always made me feel an outsider in the real world and want to keep to myself and i hate more than anything to burden people with my woe is me shit when im feelin sorry for myself. ill avoid this in future, but thank you everyone for the replys in this thread, they really helped me out and get my mind thinking in the right direction. life sucks and its hard i can either give up or fight it and atleast attempt to win, if i lose then ill be in the same place i was so i have nothing to lose. i hope this positive thinking lasts though, it usually does for a few days and then back to normal but thank you everyone here, i really do appreciate it, every single one of you ITT have made a positive impact on my life and helped me out of a shitty mindset, thank you so much
thank you everyone here
this video really helped aswell maybe itll help one of you http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HKI_oYMUNK4
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Moosey my pal,
good to hear you in a positive vibe. Don't ever feel you have to be embarrassed or ashamed to share your feelings. If we didn't give a shit we wouldn't have replied the tread. When I spent four years eating porridge I became a Listener who get trained by the Smaritans (www.samaritans.org). and so I have come into contact with many guys who are in similar positions. Even if you don't get anything like an answer to a problem or issue, you will find that just by sharing your story, you help yourself and others too.
Keep it up bruv, eP
good to hear you in a positive vibe. Don't ever feel you have to be embarrassed or ashamed to share your feelings. If we didn't give a shit we wouldn't have replied the tread. When I spent four years eating porridge I became a Listener who get trained by the Smaritans (www.samaritans.org). and so I have come into contact with many guys who are in similar positions. Even if you don't get anything like an answer to a problem or issue, you will find that just by sharing your story, you help yourself and others too.
Keep it up bruv, eP
NEVER feel embarrassed on AFN! We are a big family! I've shared MANY VERY personal troubles I've had on AFN many of a times... Them dragons sometime tend to get me rambling... And though I've made post in the past at the time I was like I can not believe I shared that... Though after is all said and done it's always been cathartic. We all have are demons and "shit in the head" it takes brave people to share and seek help ... Your post may not have only helped you but you never know on a forum such as this who is lurking and not participating that could've also been helped... It's one of the reason I continue to put my self at risk and out there on these forums because of My love of canna and all that it has done for me... I know once upon a time I was lurker and learned tons reading others journals....
So please don't ever feel a burden here on AFN.... I'm also always just a pm a way brother! If worse comes to worse Maybe you can grab some of the little popcorn buds in a couple of weeks and make some coconut canna oil to get you through.... Soon my friend... The days are ticking and harvest will soon be here! Sending you and your girl a big :hug:
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So please don't ever feel a burden here on AFN.... I'm also always just a pm a way brother! If worse comes to worse Maybe you can grab some of the little popcorn buds in a couple of weeks and make some coconut canna oil to get you through.... Soon my friend... The days are ticking and harvest will soon be here! Sending you and your girl a big :hug:
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Hi Moosey !
Ye a lot of us need to smoke the weed to slow the speed of the madness and greed so our minds are freed ;+}
I was properly depressed for over ten years and am only recently becoming a whole human being again.
I had intense anxiety attacks, suicide preparation etc ...
The weed definitely helps, especially Indica, but the thing that helps most is the love of others, and it sounds like you have some of that in your life now.
All the best,
steely.
Ye a lot of us need to smoke the weed to slow the speed of the madness and greed so our minds are freed ;+}
I was properly depressed for over ten years and am only recently becoming a whole human being again.
I had intense anxiety attacks, suicide preparation etc ...
The weed definitely helps, especially Indica, but the thing that helps most is the love of others, and it sounds like you have some of that in your life now.
All the best,
steely.
