If only I had a job where I didn't have to function in the "real" world. I actually always wanted to be a writer as a kid. I worked in the library during school and have read thousands of books.
Unfortunately my job is smack dab in the middle of the real world. Not only do I have to be able to function but I deal with politics too. My attitude is the most important part of my job. If I get stressed or angry I minds well go home for the day. Smoking keeps me calm. Even when I have to take the same call 100 times in a row I'm still able to remain patient and friendly.
I know what you mean about taking breaks to lower tolerance. It's something we naturally do because on weekends we smoke a lot more than weekdays so our tolerance does go up and down.
I think the bigger issue isn't tolerance but diversity. We get sick of smoking the same two strains for several weeks at a time. That's why I like giving meds to friends/family. Everytime they are completely blown away by the quality. It's amazing how good it makes me feel to hear that because sometimes I wonder how good it really is. Seems stupid to have such an ego over our meds but I think it's more about providing the best quality medicine possible and also taking pride in my hard work.
Your personal experience with using cannabis to treat your own mental health condition has been a huge inspiration for me with my mother. She is on the verge of becoming a ward of the state. I'm hoping with cannabis we can get her off the toxic meds and hopefully heal some of the damage the ECT treatments have done to her brain. She claims that the joints I've been giving her have been helping a lot but she can be very manipulative. It's very difficult to tell when she is well or sick. Mainly we just know she's getting bad when her memory gets worse. For example she won't remember a conversation 2 hrs later. Hopefully I'll be able to really see a difference when I can start making her a 1:1 RSO. It's still an amazing feeling just to sit with my mother and smoke. I can't wait until I can do the same with my father. It's harder with him though because he's someone I look up to and someone's opinion I actually care a about.
I wish I could talk to my father in law. Unfortunately there's a huge language barrier. Normally our conversations turn into head nods and smiles lol. I just want to know the man who will be the grandfather of my children because they will never meet him. Regardless of his personal struggles he has lived an extraordinary life and it's an amazing story.
I told my wife she needs to have a real talk with him. We never ended up having the talk on Xmas because we didn't have the heart to do it then. I wish I could it for her but in my eyes her and her brothers have been given an opportunity that most people will never have. A terminal illness is a curse but it's also a gift. We all get so caught up with all the meaningless things in our day to day lives that few of us ever get the chance to do and talk about the things that really matter.
That's for the inspiration and positive vibes Skatter!
