Just FWiW...
I've found that if I go long and let the trichs amber, or the leaves all drop, the meds are absolutely worse than nothing at all for my PTSD. I get too lethargic, and settle in to a pretty dark place- and while I may not be full o rage and paranoia- I just sit around with the thousand yard stare and remain dissociative and detached from everything. My kid just stays away from
Me other than to walk up and tell me everything is ok or ask what's wrong everyonce in a while. No go.
If I harvest 50/50 to all the way cloudy I get a way better PTSD medicine than i do otherwise. Try a blueberry thats not run so long, and you might be impressed.
Between being shot once, blown up by rpg once, blown up by ied once and shooting I'm not even sure how many people anymore I'm a fucking mess. My body is fucked, my head is no better. Pain meds are awful, again that lethargic narcotic dull stoned feeling, plus the tolerance buildup... The seraquel and Zoloft are a fucking joke. Oh- and the reflux from all the pills- now I have "barrets esophagus" which is a condition where the cells of your esophagus walls begin mutating. I get the scope down the throat every 12-18 months now- to do biopsies to catch It early enough to only maim me instead of killin me once it becomes cancer. So instead of the Celebrex, tramidal, Xanax, Zoloft, ambien, seroquel, Prilosec, tums, Motrin, and percoset- which there isn't a dr anywhere in the world who can tell me anything about all that drug interaction- instead of that I obviously stay on the weed...
Anyway- for all that- I've found that the typical med strains with high CBD etc aren't really much help- as they duplicate alot of the bullshit I'm trying to avoid. Upbeat, euphoric, and clear ... That's what I look for. Those murky foggy stoned ass indicas might prevent suicide- but that's all- they come with absolutely no improvement in quality o life for me..
Now- I know how fucked up and individual PTSD is so search for the strains that get you up and out- that work for you- that give you that feeling I being "normal" again. Indica, sativa- whatever.
I've had an auto ak47 from marijuana seeds nl as well as their auto lemon haze that have worked well for me... Mi5 if I cut it at (gasp) 9 weeks is ok too. LR2 isn't bad at 60 ish days. Ill know about spyder soon...
Good luck. Hope you can find some peace bro. God knows the alternative isn't any good.
Also FYI- it doesn't matter how long I let it go, or how stony it is- it won't keep me asleep at night- nothing has worked for that other than a scrip....
Hang in there man and hope you find some meds that are on time for you