You know... all you guys are amazing. Reading all the posts and really feeling the vibes. All your Karma, Love, Support, Kind Words, Tokes in Honor of My Dad... is just incredible. I really do love all you guys like family. And it means the world at this time. You have no idea... I have no siblings. I'm not close with my family. I've got my Wife and she's my world. Hell I'm closer with my in laws and brother in law than my blood relatives. Which I'm thankful I have all them... But, I've Always been the black sheep on both sides of my family. I can count my best friends on one hand. While AFN is my other hand. Clear Full. And you all are the shit. AFN has always been my happy place. So at this time, it really is my sanctuary.
Nothing makes this easier... I'm not a "closure" person or religious person either. I believe we have to learn to live with the pain. Those of us who don't believe in the word closure when it comes to losing the most important people in your life. My belief in the paranormal and things I've seen proved to me we don't "die". Just move on. In Spirit form. So I know he's in a better place. And free from his pain. I'm not sick to my stomach wondering if he's OK because I know in my gut and my heart he is. The hard part is knowing my time with him is over. At least for now. When I'll see him again. That's the hardest part of it all... It's just hard trying to keep it together in my mind. To do what's best for him and honor his last wishes. Within the hour of finding out I was getting calls about "we need to move his body" & "does he want cremated or buried"... And I'm like seriously! My Dad just died! And everyone's all matter of fact! I know it's their job but damn! It's like I got no time to grieve... I have to put if off because "things need done..." and I'm the only one to do them. Crazy...
Thank you all again. V E R Y much... We really are overwhelmed by you guys. In a good way... :group: And Dub... I couldn't think of a better way to honor my Dad than to name a strain after him. And you know as well as a few others.... the last time my Dad and I smoked I broke him out of the nursing home to smoke and we smoked the Cream Diesel. I knew then deep down that would be the last time we smoked together. So you know the CD has a special place in my heart forever now. Let's keep the Karma Cloud burning for a little while longer my friends...
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I was rolling one for us to smoke in honor of my Pops and no shit... the joint started rolling around a bit on it's own just sitting on the table. So I feel him with us... It may seem silly or insignificant but, if you all knew how much my Dad loved mj... it makes perfect sense. The last time I saw him a few weeks back the first thing he said was "boy, I wish I could smoke a doobie right now." So it doesn't surprise me if he came to join us.