Well as many can see I haven't been online much. I by far had the worst week of my life. This week everything went bad, lost my aunt due to cancer, and now my grandpops is in the hospital with a swollen pancreas and fluid in his lungs. Not to mention the need of dialysis 3x a week. So for those who might be wondering where I am, well I am here but not completely. I def went through so much mental trauma this week and I am depressed, anxiety is high, restless, and with my PTSD and other disorders I am just not myself!! But thanks for all the pm's for those who have been checking on me, much appreciated!! All I ask if to keep my grandpa and my family in your prayers! Hopefully everything falls into place and I can get my head straight soon!