This person never really thought me competent or capable, until he saw what I was able to do for my company (a lot of it was luck). If things don't go right in the first quarter, he has made it absolutely clear that he is backing out, so there is also a lot of risk. I am a very overly cautious and calculated person; reading my posts, it may not seem so, but trust me. Despite the risk, I feel really good about it, I feel in my BONES that this is right for me, that this is what I have been waiting for, I feel it in my bones that I can perform, I can make this more than viable, I can exceed his expectations by 3 fold, at least. This will give me time to really concentrate on school, have plenty of time to practice my hobbies (including growing 
) and do what I love for a living. I can also be that guy who is in college for like 10 years with multiple majors and learn at my leisure.
I can bang-out essays and score in the 90's all day, I can basically pull analytical essays out of my ass in 15 minutes. A research paper, I shit you not, 2-4 hours (not including gathering source materials) and still get an 'A'. This might sound weird, but I like to really tune-in and absorb everything and digest what I am learning. To me, lectures are like watching the discovery or history channel (if I could afford it, I would be one of those guys who goes to college for like 7 years with like 3 majors). I don't even have time to stay and chat with my professors or meet with them outside of class. (If it helps you to understand, I am part Asian, lol.)
Anyways, so it is like do I stick with the guy who had faith in me and gave me a chance, at my own expense or do I go with the guy who I trust, but didn't believe in my capabilities, but at the expense of the person who gave me a shot to prove myself and the people I work with as well? It would be like betraying him, something I'm not down for, but at the same time, I'm fkn miserable!!!
) and do what I love for a living. I can also be that guy who is in college for like 10 years with multiple majors and learn at my leisure.I can bang-out essays and score in the 90's all day, I can basically pull analytical essays out of my ass in 15 minutes. A research paper, I shit you not, 2-4 hours (not including gathering source materials) and still get an 'A'. This might sound weird, but I like to really tune-in and absorb everything and digest what I am learning. To me, lectures are like watching the discovery or history channel (if I could afford it, I would be one of those guys who goes to college for like 7 years with like 3 majors). I don't even have time to stay and chat with my professors or meet with them outside of class. (If it helps you to understand, I am part Asian, lol.)
Anyways, so it is like do I stick with the guy who had faith in me and gave me a chance, at my own expense or do I go with the guy who I trust, but didn't believe in my capabilities, but at the expense of the person who gave me a shot to prove myself and the people I work with as well? It would be like betraying him, something I'm not down for, but at the same time, I'm fkn miserable!!!
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