Thanks Roasty, I can't really describe how I am feeling. Numb would be the first word I could think of. It's something you can't prepare for ever. She was suffering so I am happy that she is not hurting anymore...but she will be missed immensely. This is the hardest thing I have done in my life, but I want to turn my negative thoughts and feelings into positive thoughts and use this experience to change things that should have been a long time ago in my own life.