Live Stoners Live Stoner Chat - Apr-Jun '23

[Suki]

I think I'm finally over that SNRI's influence. I was on it for 2 weeks then it was 10 days before the roller coaster settled down. It was an unfair experience. The highs kept diminishing, but the lows didn't. The mood stabilizer is finally at a level that works. So far, it's so relaxing not having to expend energy to hold my emotions in. I've spent so much of my life holding frustration and rage in that this is suddenly such a relief.

Now I'm clear that the periods where I was most productive have been hypomanic. If I get a stimulating problem to work on, I'll get a tickle in the back of my head. Once I start coding the solution, that intensifies into an episode where I don't sleep because then I'd lose all the variables in memory. I have patents to show for some of those episodes. I had a 16 year stretch of my career where every application I architected and developed was still in use. I have also been walked out of a few good jobs because that lightning didn't strike and I couldn't get anything done or my rage would escape.

I went to this doc a year ago telling him that I have this self-destruct sequence that I have experienced several times in my life and could feel the timer counting down again. Turns out it was bipolar depression. The timer nearly hit zero a few times over the last few weeks, but I'm back to hopeful.

BTW, one of the biggest things I've learned in this is that if someone says they're going through something, don't just say "Feel free to call me anytime." During depressive episodes, isolation is more than an urge. It's a reflexive result of the distress. You have to reach out to them.

Damn I could have basically written this. I know you said yourself it's silly but do feel free to message any time, sometimes it helps to have someone with the same issues to talk to.

 

[N/A-Greengo]

Ripley's OG Rosin is crazy potent..... Have you ever seen legit purple Rosin?

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[420Forever]

2fer tuezday doubledose of vitaminz E & B... ppp

 

[Mossy]

BTW, one of the biggest things I've learned in this is that if someone says they're going through something, don't just say "Feel free to call me anytime." During depressive episodes, isolation is more than an urge. It's a reflexive result of the distress. You have to reach out to them.

Pain makes you MUTE....... ...mental or Physical.....it also Isolates you....But...you are Not Alone...

Many cannabis users suffer........so you are amongst friends.

I Hope i keeps improving for you......

 

[Mossy]

Very pleasant actually.. It's moreso a candied Banana... But I do detect a Creme in background as well....

Sounds Delicious........ ...I Often wonder if the ones like Strawberry/Banana actually Do smell or taste of it............or if it is Breeders Poetic License.......

 

[Frankthetank]

 

[N/A-Greengo]

Sounds Delicious........ ...I Often wonder if the ones like Strawberry/Banana actually Do smell or taste of it............or if it is Breeders Poetic License.......

That's a can of worms, and highly debatable really. But I believe most top breeders have got it down pat to a science. I mean, considering today's tech and everything that is known about the complexity terpenes....


Thanks for the Reps!

 

[Frankthetank]

 

[5 Star Trich]

Sounds Delicious........ ...I Often wonder if the ones like Strawberry/Banana actually Do smell or taste of it............or if it is Breeders Poetic License.......

This Strawberry Banana bho smells really piney but tastes a lot like strawberry and banana.

 

[Frankthetank]