to the one that brings
the light
fires the dance
with bold strokes
across a mythic canvas
Sunday's offering
the light
fires the dance
with bold strokes
across a mythic canvas
On Thursday, I went to the hospital to have an MRI. No big deal normally, right? Well, it was almost the death of me..............
I have a very messed up right shoulder and I am unable to lie flat on hard surfaces, sometimes even in bed. I had tried three time in the last 6 weeks to get the MRI and couldn't. So they decided to sedate me. Fine, I've been under sedattion at least 10 times with no issues.........................
And they gave me an overdose............500mg of Ketamine vs the 200 I should have got............. And I spent 10 hours in recovery, suffering from the most horrible hallucinations you can imagine, and convinced the entire time I was likely to die ( when i had a rare instance of lucidity ). I was begging them to help me, but I couldn't make myself understood. On top of that, they had no procedures in place to deal with this situation as I wasn't technically under my doctor's care, I wasn't having a procedure. The Anesthesiologist was not at the hospital, they had the call in the attending and an on duty Anesthesiologist, who, according to my lady said, upon looking at my chart: " That's an astounding dosage!"..............
I finally feel about normal. But I'm terrified of taking any meds. I can barely take a couple puffs on my vaporizer. I can't even look at, not to say in, a pill bottle. I can't take my meds, I'm terrified of falling back into that horrible world I was in............
And they expect me to have surgery in the near future?????? NO F'N way!
I have no idea what it will take to get my head on straight. I'll be tending my plants. I don't know how much time I'll be spending here for a while, I'm a mess and admit it.
I love how there's that spot of clarity there right inside the rainbow... More good timing!to the one that brings
the light
fires the dance
with bold strokes
across a mythic canvas
View attachment 671142 Sunday's offering
hahaha, timing implies I might have done something, I think it was more like GraceI love how there's that spot of clarity there right inside the rainbow... More good timing!
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Archie thats an understatment . Looks like the whole thing has gone in the crapper .![]()
I have no idea what it will take to get my head on straight. I'll be tending my plants. I don't know how much time I'll be spending here for a while, I'm a mess and admit it.
good morning Jraven! I get error when click, just show us, please